-longforyou

2006-01-30T02:43:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year.

2005-12-09T10:39:00.000+08:00

hey honey. i see you havent been blogging and coming online. anyohhows, 2 more days. :)

much love. i love you. miss you so.

2005-12-06T09:58:00.000+08:00

baby, i miss you hell lotsa tons. i really do. im now at the game centre. its 10:04 in singapore. jus woke up not long ago.let me tell you what i've done all these while ya? missing you, loving you, looking forward to my return to see your pretty face. i miss you upside down, inside out.

first day-friday

went to the airport. than was on the plane, took pictures ofthe planes for you. i remembered. than was departuring at 7 plus alr. reach there at 8plus. than went to lembun kuning to eat. ate the dua dua prawns, like size bigger than your hand, ate the crispy chicken and the chilli vege. yummy. but i had alr began to miss you to the extreme. i'm not breathing well, i seriously aint. with the bill tt's hanging in the middle. jus come to think of how expensive tt would be. so tt night, i slept while feeling hell tired, not knowing how to feel.

second day-saturday

i woke up late morning and went to my god-papi's house.than i went to the asea biggest shopping mall, walked abit. no mood to walk. imagine a mall 8 times bigger than suntec. hah. you'll take a million times to walk finish it. so i went to the top level and went ice skating larr. after that went time zone. played the shoot hoops and all short of things to earn tickets. wanted to change you the super dua eeyore but i got not enought tickets. so i change the winnie the pooh for you lor. than went to have tea break at the pizza hut. fine i guess. than walk more than ate at the restaurant. home. bathed and than drank martell mixed red wine. how gross. all to numb myself. got really drunk , felt so giddy. drank so much, next day woke up with a beer belly lar. :(

third day-sunday

hell tiring i tell ya. i think i've phobia sitting in cars a lr. the thought of it , i wanna puke sia. damn shit ok. we went to the tallest mountain in indonesia. so we took like hours and hours to reach lar. than its called puncak pos wat. so ah, there are alot of those ppl walking around selling stuff , than they kept pestering me lar. so no choice bought 50000rp worth of stuff. than on top of the mountain is natural cold. nice scenery but i scared lar . heights. so uhhh. we ate at the restaurant simpang raya there. so took the car all the way back. 7hrs. butt hurtsss. :/went home had dinner and went to the supermarket 5times bigger than central ntuc. bian tai. bought so much food. rp230900. over hundred items sia. eat so much lar. damn damn damn. so FAT.

fourth day-monday

went to dinoland!! imagine it 4 times bigger than escape right. quite fun lar. not exciting at all without you. :/ than to my aunt's shop. home for dinner. and drank champagne. haha.darling beer belly, fat alr. how? still love me?

baby, i love you. i miss you so much you never know how i struggled to survive my days.

i love you. i miss you..

2005-12-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

i dont knw why im still blogging
whn you cant evn see it.

at home till five plus.
went northpoint to buy books.
popular. aft tht headed to the night market.
haha. ate many stuff. bought somethng nice.
uhwells. today's no funn.
been missing you mann.
i just bloody want to hear just for a minute.
haha. but, wells. cant.
trng tmr. coach not here.
but i like i guess.

hadnt been right mind since ages.
left seven more days ! (:
cant wait for tht day.

hope ure doing all rights.

2005-12-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

ifimissfissyoufou

went snow city and science centre today.
(: had funn.
but snow city's quite boring, though
the slide was nicee.
only amazement though.
reminded of the sch outing to sci centre. :D
the three of us kept goofing arnd. haha.

table in a mess.
hadnt pack.
school reopening.
december finishing.
christmas coming.
sam's leaving for njc. :|
tht sucks hell lots.

uhwells. better start on serious work. -

: hey my friend
hope ure able to come online and stuff.
but arent sure if ure able to see it though.
blogging vryday just for you.
im happy today (: , are you ?
did you enjoy urself, ate well ?
took care of ur gum, slept well ?
uhwells, take real care.
u cant evn see this.
anyways, i miss you. terribly.
really. so alone.
but well, happy.
sam has been trying to be like you (:
ohwells. hope i can hear frm you soon.
i love you.

though a million wrds i have sent across,
not a single word lands on those pair of ears,
but i sincerely wish,
three words have touched ur heart.
i miss you

2005-12-02T14:52:00.000+08:00

baby, take care.
sweetheart, i love you.

2005-12-02T09:50:00.000+08:00

BABY! morning. i'm going to the dentist now. i hopeit will get extracted off. damn it mann. haha. morning my sweet heart. i miss you. :)

lotsa loveeee.

2005-12-01T09:32:00.000+08:00

:hey baby, ming tian wo jiu zou ler

hello! it's morning 9:33am on thurs, bet you'll still be sloggin the bed. hahaha. you pig. :p anyways, i'll be leaving tmrw, and you must take real lotsa of care k. i don't want to come back knowing you're sick or anything yar. and DON'T flirt around with ppl hor! haha. although i understand tt there's ppl around who wants to flirt with you, but since you're my gorgeous, haha. so must ting hua. understand? haha. don worry, i've got no one to flirt with and i wont flirt with any. nice enough? mm. anyways, while im away, you enjoy yourself yeah. remember what i told you, but i hack know it works, if you miss me, ahem, i know you will. haha. jus close your eyes, think of each month, each special day, each moment we spent together. when you close your eyes, feel tt i'm by your side. if you ever feel so down, be happy . because, there's someone missing you hell lots of tons out there. yeah?? oh yesh. although no more training ah, you still gotta keep up your fitness. HOR. you havent been regulary doing the situps and pushups and jogs. no training, you go jog as much as you can ah, we have a wagger rmbr, who is seen to have changed most in this ten days will get a cheesecake treat. HEAR. ME. CHEEESEE CAKE. the yummy yummy type. haha. i'll try to get as mush thing as i can for you over there. i hope i can squeeze in my case. haha. so, once more reminder :
do the dos and heed on the donts ah.
must really take real care. sweet heart, i'll miss you alot alot alot.

when I see you
I see happines
when I think of you
I think of love
when I touch you
I touch my everything
when I kiss you
I kiss my life
when I sleep
I dream of you
baby,
I love you!

lovingyoumost,someonewholivesinyourheart,
dearest spidey. :)

2005-11-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

There could be no one else like you.
What ever I do I think of you.
I close my eyes and dream up bright
and I will calm my soul and sight
Baby you know I love you.
You know I'll always be there to hug you.
And when spiderman show up in your window
Don't be frightend, It's because I love you
you show me the way to my heart
you show me the highway to Heaven
you show me everything because you love me.
I picture you coming down with me
to a place that I will be able to see.
your beautiful face is just one of those things
that will always stay and show me the way.

iloveyou. :)spidy!

2005-11-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

//missing you

you're fucking special.
super precious.
most dearest.
tt's why, am cool, i love you ma ' babygirl.
i'll miss you hello lotsa tons while you're gone.
than you'll miss me there.
you'll miss me back truck loads with love while 'am gone.
than i'll miss you from there.
you've gotta enjoy, so i'll enjoy.
you don enjoy, i'll not enjoy.
get the point?
conclusioonn, you happy than i happy.
haha.
ok my love, i miss you now. i miss you soon again.
butta i love you now, i'll still love ya eternity. not soon enough, come what may,
i'll still love love you, my baby precious darlingest dearest sweetest cutest, gorgeous honey sweet heart.
you, are the perfection in my eyes.

byebye. signout by your cutest!HAHA wheee. :D

2005-11-22T14:40:00.001+08:00

so unreasonable

trng ystd was funn (:
warmup was tedious though.
but drills are quite okay.
haha. went her hse aft tht.
but ate so much for lunch remember.haha
loved the times we spent (:

today was :|, eeyer.
nice weather. raining and chilly.
slept till twelve plus.
haha. supposed to meet gnortsmra today,
.. but freakingly, not allowed.
ugh. so staying at home. act studious.
:| wanted to go see the superstar one knw.
but thn, uhwells. shant elaborate.
anyway both of us got scolded.

cant wait for thurs and slpovr.
but now not evn sure if permission granted.
dont knw wht she saying also :|

uhwells. today's okay i guess.

ill miss you with a happy smile

2005-11-20T19:27:00.000+08:00

haha. yay. must blog what you do everyday. so i'll knw woot. haha.
you blog like :) :/:D haha. funneh my dear.
i'll tell you all about the things i do there yar! i make sure i rem every single detail! :D
love!

2005-11-20T14:01:00.000+08:00

the endless road ahead

half the hols ae gone but,
it isnt that fulfilling i guess.
ohwells. watched the exorcism of emily rose, zathura and sky high (:
jumanji is more thrilling though.
uhwells, but all are nice.
enjoyed the company. haha. (:
so long nvr blog and it seems wierd.
but .. funn. (:
ohh. bobbbyjohn got out of survivor :|
ugh. but steph still in (:

hiaya. act blog for you to see.
vrytime say i nvr blog.
ohwells. whn u go ovrseas maybe ill blog daily
and ull get to see frm there.
but i wont knw ur daily activities.
yaa. thts abt it. so bored. :|

2005-11-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

ribbit-ribbit.

<3babyblue

2005-11-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

i was born to love you with every single beat of my heart
yes i was born to take care of you every single day of my life
an amazing feeling came through
i love you baby.

i just love you, every lil' thing bout you ; i love.

2005-11-12T12:25:00.000+08:00

baby,
As I feel the tear go down my cheek,
I notice that my heart is weak,
For the love I have for you,
Will always be gold and true,
I have made some mistakes, they rest in the past,
But know my love will always last,
Even though we are a distance apart,
You always have the key to my heart,
i love you, i miss you.
//sugarhoney.

2005-10-16T17:15:00.000+08:00

so bored.

2005-09-30T12:33:00.000+08:00

you made my life worthwhile;
my day worth a wait;
my hour woth a million blessing;
my minutes worth this craze;
and..
my every second worthing to this love i had to you.

study hard. ily :D
//armstrng(c)

2005-09-02T20:09:00.000+08:00

ure always on my mind

last day of term 3 (:
two main goals :
1) study hard, VERY hard for the eoys.
2) lose weight.
- someone said i put on weight :|

how can i not worry about you.
even just a fine frm you wont stop me frm worrying.
im thinking of you vry moment you know.
i just want to be there for you,
i knw you dont need me right now.

i miss you -

2005-08-31T12:47:00.000+08:00

just fcuk off.
i dont want to care or think abt it anymore.
haven you disturbed us long enough ?
you pull me down and uve got ur wish.
- im dead inside

2005-08-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

heaven knows

i can finally come online ! :D
oh mann. miss it so much.

on probation. :|
ohwells. no choice. have to face the consequences.
these two days is so boring.
dont feel like talking abt it.
so bored at home.
have to study ! is only 2 more wks.
uhh-wells.

no matter wht you decided on,
ill just follow suit,
without a wrd of complaint.
so just go ahead, do wht you think its best
and ill grap ur hand tightly, with the same footsteps.
i hope during this period of time,
we'll withstand anythn tht comes in our way.
no temptions will lead us to anywhere
or neither wld our heart loose their way.
if we can pass through this,
thn im suree our love is the purest

i miss you baby // vry milli seconds

2005-08-07T18:40:00.000+08:00

no one can tear us apart for ure in my heart

sports trip was , .. alright.
dont knw wht to say. indescribable.
but it was a fruiful experience. yaa.
but the ppl was fun. haha.
esp, myhalf was there to make it enjoyable
and thts why i love it. (:
love the stargazing and the breeze.
a lot of stuff happen recently. oh wells.
but all in all, fine.
i miss my friend. :

2005-07-10T21:26:00.000+08:00

the bond in us stands so strng,
its indescribable to anyone out there.
i dont care wht they think for as long,
i belive tht our love is like the moon in the air.

tmr's comp. (:
exciting and nervous.
ahh ! so scary.
and we're performing during assembly.
YAYS. thts like why i cant wait for tmr.
though the sch think is so boring.
dont feel like typing alr.
XUN's on line. :D nights

2005-06-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

ill be there for you

weeks have pass since 190691.
and tht day rocks like shit mann. :D
thanks to those who made it special
and u knw who u are. haha
i love all 7 of u ! (:
had so much funn. :D so cool.
haha. it was an unforgettable experience.
and i start to love my bday on sun like hon.
(:

sch has started and today was FUN !
started with art thn home econs. (:
2 damn slack periods.
got the milkrun shirt. okay laa.
talk abt during home econs.
aft recess, science.
usually its SO boring but, haha
today, me and abi started talking
and i was deciding on my diff smiles.
thn it was so unglam and funny tht abi
started laughing very loudly and its was contagious.
the whole class start laughing at it and
mrs ong was like ,
" you shld check up on luaghing gas"
stupidd. but we talked crap and laugh alott.
always have so much fun with her mann.
always my class bestie
best siting partner ever had.
so obviously, didnt concentrate on sci.
ltr, eng and another funny one.
supposed to act out as various ppl in a
shopping centre. so me and abi were sellers.
and we both have jackets
so we wanted to promote tht.
thus, we walked arnd and talk abt our product.
slammed the tables and talked so loudly tht we
didnt use any adjec at all can.
and daph fei vanessa were security guards
so they caught us and sent us to jail. so stupid.
:D made so many laugh. (:
it was a very fun day and so nice to joke
and just play with abi. (:
but it wasnt complete w/out my spiderman :|
miss her like bloody alott.
so much more fun if she cld share it with me too. (:
but i knw she'll enjoy herself there too.
always on my mind.

going to jubilate ltr.
(: so exciting ! go support loo !
haha. go with sam cheryl and vanessa.
ohwells. leaving soon. :D
ohhs ! going to watch alot like love !
got dvd. haha (:

no matter how far we are,
our hearts will still link together
and we'll emerge the strngest
at the very end //

loveyoumyhalf

2005-06-19T19:47:00.000+08:00

HI HON :D
boo! guess who? :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
altho you are not surprised today but still, i can FEEL you enjoyed today right!? yeepee :D
anws, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

dedicated to this b'dae girl here:
happy birthday to you
happy brithday to you
happy birthday to honey baby!
happy birthday to you!

I LOVE YOU TONS. NO DOUBT.

2005-06-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

(:
thnks hon for saving my blog !
and adding the so cute dolphin there.
u knw ill like it (:
haha. and i blog ur blog !
must go see. wht i want to say here
is all said there ! haha :D
* ilu

string partner :
i saw im num 5. (: yay !
xunn ! i miss you so muchh mann !
haha. the whole hockey team (sectwos) all
counting down that beautiful day ure coming back. :D
haha. i feel like i have alot of thngs to say to you
but thn like dont have. haha.
andand i wantt to hear how's life there.
got anyone bully u not ? haha
must say yaa , help u take revnge.
but ure such a nice girl too have enemies. (:
ohmanns. whn ure back, we must go to the beach one day
and tresure the times ill be spending with you.
we can look at the stars tog. haha. i knw u love it. (:
and also , must give u a comfy and lasting hugg !
yesyes ? itll be so nice. and i regretted the times
where i can spend with you to create more memories
for me to think abt whn ure not here. ohwells.
this's so saddening.
i tied the string on my bagg ! yay. :D
haha. treasure it alott mann.
siad it all in the letter alr (: haha
ohwells, i shall say more to you face-to-face (:
counting down the days yaa.
really miss u alott.
hockey trngs arent the same without u and will
never be the same , i can say.
sighs. just want you to faster come back is all i wish, really.
haha.

* ilu always ; string partner (:
ur smile and presence is the best gift for my birthday.
miss you and ur smile which can make me happy.

2005-06-15T07:05:00.000+08:00

HALLO!
its 7:05am and im done with your blog!! aint i great?? and is this ok?? :D
i love you!!
-hon.

2005-06-14T14:33:00.000+08:00

whn i say it out loud,
you find it wierd.
whn i keep mum about it,
you complain im too indecisive
and a coward to admit it.
so wht do you want me to do,
i just give up.

pls dont ask why my blog is like tht.
long story.
so hmm, asking help frm anyone here to help renovate my blog.
million of thanks tht'll be. (:
hia.

2005-04-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

in com lab !
supp to do research and vrythng but ..
haha. :)
got cheer prac ltr.
and so many hmk to do nowadays.
going to support cross-country tmr !
yaahh ! :D
cheer for my gf twin vanessa diana and jiaai !
going to skip trng.
dont knw whether its good not cos fri got match.
ohwells.

+ lots of nice memories that i kept without u knowing ;
but i want to create more with you ! :D

2005-03-26T14:50:00.000+08:00

hello ! :D
haha. my blog was dead but nows not.
ill just blog whnever i feel like it.

damn tired.
doing all the research and stuff.
ohwells, but now there are some special things
which made my lifr more interesting ! (:

2005-01-21T15:12:00.001+08:00

said i wont be blogging anymore
but cant stand it alr !
i really need to rant.

i have so many thngs to tell you
but you never gave me a chance,

now that you are leaving,
you dont even know i existed
and there's nothing i can do too.

hope you enjoy urself.

2004-10-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

I need to let go of this pride

got back results these past few days.
and it suck ! uhhs.
nvm. hu cares anyway ? well, me.
in a confuse state whether to buy zhan shen.
aiyah, just buy laa.
i am so crappy.

i seriously need to change my layout !

2004-10-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

just watched finish the dvd CINDERALLA STORY !
OMG ! it was so damn nice.
so .. fantasy.
ohwells.
and obviously,
chadmichaelmurray is so cute !
haha. gonna watch agn tmr.
but it wont happen in reality wont it ?
whateverr !
shld turn in earlier tonight.
gdnight.

2004-10-14T15:26:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over !
heh.
slacking these few days.
and i knw my chi damn lousy can ?

going back to sch tmr.
happy in a way ?
dont knw laa.

2004-09-16T15:53:00.001+08:00

wo zhi dao yao fang qi ni
dan shi wo que zou bu dao
ni ke yi qiao wo ma ?

ok, i think i wont blog leh.
until the eoys are over.
theres exactly like 2 more weeks ?
hurrs. :/

i learnt somethng abt you recently ;
that hurt me
but it also made me got over you

2004-09-08T15:18:00.001+08:00

somehow you are no longer tht important to me
but every once in a while
your face will appear in my mind
making me unsure of wht am i thinking
there is still a twinge of jealousy and envy
but dont worry,
i wont stick to you cos i knw you detest it ;

feeling so confused. [?]

hols have started long ago
yet i haven started studying.
ohwells. whn i want to study,
also have the urge to on the tv.
-hurrs.
wanto change my layout !
but no idea for it. :/

better get studying. (:

i wonder whether you thought of me this instant

2004-09-08T15:18:00.000+08:00

2004-09-05T23:02:00.000+08:00
I have finally let go of you

hello !
had a really nice time these past few days.
and i begin to love 1truth moreandmore each day !
tht day we had eastcoast outing.
nearly the whole class went. it was SO fun.
before going to eastcoast,
me loo daph fei cai
went to ps to catch 13 going on 30
it was very nice and saddening !
me and loo cried at some parts. haha.
think its so silly. huiyu keep saying its only a show.
but it was really nice !
must go catch it.
before tht on a weekday.
went to j8 with geraldine huiyu samanthangui
caught the stephford's wives.
it was - robotic.- frowns
ok larh. not tht nice.
waiting for princess daires 2 to come out now.
and went out today for dinner with family.
bought 2 hairband and earings.
yarr. thts all i can say for these few days.
but i had more fun than tht ! (:
and got friendster ! so those who wana add me can add.
those dont want thn dont add.
talking crap. haha.

(:

2004-08-21T13:57:00.000+08:00
im not crazy, im just a little unwell
i know, right now you dont care

added a picture !
haha. find it not tht plain now.
using loo's com now as im in her hse now.
went to little india just now.
so .. tiring ? dont knw larh.
but it was so hot and vrythng
fell asleep in the drama studio
for a little while only.
and chenlaoshi had to wake me up !
haha. these few days was nice ! (:
i am quite hyper and ystd was very nice also.
but cant tell you guys now but will come back ltr
cause going orchard with loo ! (:
bye !

and oh yarr, i am falling all in love with
unwell - matchbox 20
so nice ! i knw its an old song but
its really nice.
i thought i was sick with it since i heard it so many times.
but whn i heard it in the american idol, hias ..

(:

2004-08-14T12:36:00.000+08:00
ni yuan yi xiang xing wo ma ?
dui ni de ai jiu shi na me jian dan
shi xing ren, shi cheng nuo, shi yi lai
bu xu yao li xing geng bu xu yao li jie
zhi shi ai shang ni er yi /-

simple love ;

2004-08-13T23:17:00.000+08:00
whn i thot i cld be the one there for you,
only did i realize tht i am driffting away from you

you let me belive in you
yet, you let me lose faith in you
its not your fault i guess,
its mine.

i am too sensitive !
today was dammn fun and nice ! (:
dnt test was return to us today.
got 32/50
think tht it was not bad alr
considring i passed ?
but my mum still say ' so low arh ? '
rahhs. and my sci physics
got 12/20
also think tht it was amazing tht i cld passed.
haha. dun knw larh.
chinese common test today.
quite ok but left a 4 mark ques completely blank.
bahhs. thn whn to delta to watch the boys finals
with yuai aud pqs minfang
thn went town with yuai lorraine pokk minfang siewmin
did not buy stuff cause tmr going back there with siew min.
went to eat yoshinoya for dinner.
shared a combo set with yuai.
and obviously, agn, we fight over all the food
the rice, chicken drink and soup.
so irritating but funny ! (:
haha/ she kept spilling my soup all over.
thn jingyu and lorraine felt so ashamed.
haha. was really funny.
had a great time with them.
and during the train ride home,
me yuai lorraine were charade-ing.
so hilarious ! (:
dun knw wht each of us toking abt.
thn nice siew min cabbed me and jingyu home.
payed the fare. thnks alot !

had a fun time today.
haha. maybe i shld be like tht often.
(:

2004-08-11T22:22:00.000+08:00
we have finally achieve our aims ;
the gold in our heart, we have reached

snhockey c'div have champs ! (:
today was our last and crucial match.
and we won 3-1 ! -cheers
got prize presentation aft tht.
took photos and lianhezaobao also took us !
haha. they interviewed laura abt our happenings.
aft tht we ran arnd the pitch.
we were screaming laughing and talking.
it was So fun ! haha. ((:
went back to sch and dine at macs.
rushed back home to catch singapore idol !
so nice.

ilove sch today !
met all the ppl i missed badly.
had eng compre time piece today.
quite ok larh.
and hist was a joy to me ! (:
-winks
maths common test was successful unlike all the others
but shld not be too complacement.

i think i wana catch qianjibian 2
which comes out tmr.
but must find somebody to go with.

really really love today !
not only did we win,
we had prove to all other cca,
teachers and vrybody tht hockey
is not at all lousy to them.
all our hard work had been paid off.
we are a team !
not only tht,
i found/adopted an older sis !
haha. she's really nice. (:

(: Cheers for SNHOCKEY !

2004-08-09T18:10:00.000+08:00
concern we may not be
care we may not seem
but when either of us
lands in grave danger
unite bonds us together
letting us overcome any obstacles

this is meant for snhockey ej and starrlets
-wed is our final match
and we had strive hard
for this coming day
hard we must continue to play
to achieve the gold in our minds

2004-08-09T10:36:00.000+08:00
(:

heys ! im dropping by to blog for you !
you havent blogged for hurms, a few days ?
i shall update people for you !

wells, she's back frm desaru.
and i bet she had lots of fun !
since vreone did wht.
and before tht she'd a match.
they won and made it to the final !
hoho. aint this great ? (:

okays, haha i dontknw wht else to say.
ahwells. you should stay happyhappy okays ?
cause vreone wanta see you smilee. -grinn.
alrightys laa i shall take my leave alr.
takecare and i love you plenty !
OH, and snhockey rocks ! (: -hugg.

; LEEJINGYU

2004-08-05T17:23:00.000+08:00
hyprocrite, yes its you im saying

dont really know who to trust these few days
and the ppl i thought who will be there
for me did not even give a damn care. :/
boohs. it sucks.

today was racial harmony day !
not that it was really nice
but it was fun visiting here and there.
and nearly all of us da-pan.
teachers did not have lesson aft tht
as we all pleaded her not to.
haha. went amk central with lorraine.
headed to popular. thn walk arnd.
realised some stuff.
and at the mrt, i saw _____ and his girlfriend ! (:
and he is a teacher yet he does not care abt his image.
he saw my shorts but red t-shirt yet he still .. sia
maybe they really miss each other.

tmr is the day to desaru and semi.
playing against teck whye.
lorraine say its a 60-40 chance of we winning.
hope so. but most of us have injuries.
well, hope you all recover and play well tmr (:
but we will miss the fruit trip. ):
and my roommates are audrey estee and xunning ! (:
cool. and yuai room is only beside us.
lovely.

wo yi jing hen nu li leh /-

2004-07-31T17:14:00.000+08:00
I paid my price with my pride

-

played a match with cres today.
we won 2-0 ! means we can get into semi !
cool. playing the another one on 6th aug.
but its on the desaaru trip day.
so it will be a little rush.

nowadays dont really know wht to blog abt.
theres so much to say
but i dont knw how to put it. :|
yarr. i sudd miss someonealot !
i regretted so much come to think of it.
only whn im bitten i know whts shy
shittified. why why why
rahh-

you are the only one in my heart now

sickening.
and its ann-maries's b'day today !
happybirthday !
you rock my socks girl.
and treasure this day cause its only once in a yr
yupp ! (:

i have too much pride in me
tht made me lose the courage
to speak out loud the love i have for you
but you are at the other world
completely involved in a wrld of your own
not caring abt me
but i dont care
if only you are happy
i will do anythng

is my price cleared ?
if it is,
why am i still feeling heart broken ?

2004-07-28T20:45:00.000+08:00
love is wht makes you smile whn you're sad

-

st nicks got double champ ! (:
not tht i am very happy abt it.
its just tht .. long story i guess.
tmr is quart-finals alr !
against yuhua.
damn freaking scary larh.
hope the first 11 wont freak out so much.
esp jingyu abigail and rui !
main - scorers ! (:
jiayou ! must tryour very VERY best !

-

sch was quite relaxing tday.
soo sad huiyu didnt come.
got flu. well, get well soon !
pe was so fun.
but last day of netball.
next week is table tennis.
eng was so boring. always.
thn hist was very interesting.
thn blah blah ..
went to drama studio whn the rest
of the whole sec went to support track.
was very fun. vrybody was happy (:
so cool. slack was traning.
did not do anythng heavy cause tmr is comp.
yarr. thts all. went northpoint to get pokk glove.

(:

happy //

2004-07-26T16:43:00.000+08:00
+ look for the girl with the broken smile ]

home early today ! (:
moring assembly sucks today
i was so tired alr ?
and they still made us say the cheer
likke i will say. :|
and sch was ok.
played the com mini-organ !
so cool. (:
sci teacher left halfway
so went to find meixian
to return her the geog book.
but it turned out somethng happened ..
ohwells. she sought it out alr.
lunch with loo. talk alittle (:
thn went home with audrey and siewmin.

and i found out tht domeone
likes to go arnd bithcing ppl in
their own guestbk or tagboard
they are so damn free and not
brave enough to say their name lahh.

hiaz. :/

suppose to be studying now since
the whole week im busy.
but no mood lahh.

dun knw. think im going to
change my layout agn.
soon maybe. ^this is such a short entry.

2004-07-21T22:14:00.000+08:00
/ found tht vrythng was a fantasy
and you were a past ]

i think

-

dont really have the mood to blog
but got nothing to do. -sheesh
perhaps i am jealous or sumthng.
but i dont have the right to ?
maybe i shld just relax
like wht louisa said

havent do lots of stuff
and friday got competition ! (:
hurr. played table tennis today during pe
was so damn fun !
me and abi was like crazy ?
too high adi. cant tell
cause it sounds really stupid.
but thngs got boring during eng lessons.
i don knw why i do some thngs
tht are not reasonable ?
maybe i had let my heart rule my head /

-

2004-07-20T18:14:00.000+08:00
/ why shld I even bother ]

-

just whn i thought i
cld live without you
i came to know abt somethng
and i cld hear a sound of glass breaking
it was like a sword piercing
through my heart

i thought maybe if i tried not to see you
all the feelings will evaporate
but to no avail
i thought if as a teating
tht if i pretented not to care
you would notice my presence
but i was wrng
you did not even once turn arnd and look
at how i was doing or how i am
now i know
tht actually all the little thngs
i did to help you smile
was going down the drain
whn u wake up the next morning
you completely forgotten vrythng
memories of my help was not even there
only the moments with her
will stay eternity-ly

i thought if i stay by ur side u wld notice me
and gave me a moment of ur time
but it turned out
to be wishful thinking of my part
all i know is
you do not care abt me

-

photo taking during recess
haha / we took so longg to take 2 photos
cause its digital cam ?
so not nice thn keep taking
but it was funn ! (:
went j8 with loo !
ate KFC. saw mdm lim and mrs [forgott] here.
bought a pair of earrings and rubberbands !
saw lotts of others cool stuff
but no money. :/
saw amanda and yanling there.
this amanda say i follow her larh
so funny. like nothing to do like tht.
but really fate leh
vrywhere also met her
haha. i can go DESARU !
(: yippee ! mama allow.
andand name*-
i dun want to guess who you are ?
cos i really got no clue.
yarr. u are not extraa larh.
but if i knw you very well one thn you
shld just leave ur name and not rao yi da quan
yarr. so tell me hu are you kae ?
waiting for ur next entry ! (:

2004-07-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

/ without you where do i belong ]

in jean's hse now !
haha. watching hai tun wan lian ren
so damn nice.
but sorry LORRAINE !
cld not go because mum dun allow but im
here because its just near my hse
so yarr -
Sorry ! really sorry.

today was so boring.
hia. there were no interesting lesson.
recess also got monitor meeting.
after sch came strng here.

sudd im seem at a lost of wrds.
i dun knw wht to say larh.
butbut , i have learned to control
myself and not let my heart rule my mind.
yupp. (: and name* haven reveal itself.
:)

- happy

:)

2004-07-18T14:05:00.000+08:00
talk to me ;
thts wht my love is here for
cant stand to see
those tears in ur eyes
i'll do anythng it takes
to make it right
baby ..
talk to me ;
even if its just a say goodbye

-

never been here like nearly a week
did not have the time
was chilling all day today.
YSTD
traning in the morning.
Mr Ng bought for us tau hui ! (:
ate lunch in sch with yuai.
went to have a haircut.
now i find its nicer.
alittle shorter at the back.
but its cooler.
went back and slept all the way till 6+
ate dinner. watch a movie at home.
went bck to slp.

Ystd the Ystd ; friday
sch was a total freak.
i totally screw up my sci test.
and i already failed my previous one.
i think im gonna fail agn.
- boohs. failure
guess i think i shld study harder.
thn had trng.
went to yuai hse.
and .. i wana thnk ruiyin !
although she will not see it.
but wana thnk her for letting me bit her !
and she made me cry and all tht. /
really needed it. had kept it inside for so long.
wanted to bursted it all out.
thn went to watch qihang
-quite nice.

-

i think i hld not be so lovesick and vrythng adi.
shld get a life.
yupp.

-

sometimes gdbye though it hurts in ur
heart is the only way for destiny ;
sometimes gdbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me ;
and its the hardest thng to say ,
ill miss ur love in every way
so say gdbye
but dont you cry
cause true love never dies

-sure

-

(:

2004-07-12T16:48:00.001+08:00
i keep hoping tht you wld look at me

have been thinking all day.
finally came to a thought of giving up.
and continue to lead on with life.
yupps ! hmm .. chenlaoshi did not come today.
she was sick. but during her lesson.
our class was so noisy tht zhanglaoshi
from next door had to come and scold us.
but tht did not help as ..
1 truth is hopeless ! :)
i like it tht way. so wht if we are the noisiest
we are more united tht way !

science changed to biology today.
woo rahhs men ! getting tired of phyics.
but bio talked abt cells and vrythng.
not tht nice. quite boring.
yupp. have competition tmr.
but cannot come out of class early. :(
hmm. yarr. lyk tht lorh.
eating cookies now ! delicious. yum-yum !
haha. :)

-
am i thinking too much ?

2004-07-12T16:48:00.000+08:00
i keep hoping tht you wld look at me

have been thinking all day.
finally came to a thought of giving up.
and continue to lead on with life.
yupps ! hmm .. chenlaoshi did not come today.
she was sick. but during her lesson.
our class was so noisy tht zhanglaoshi
from next door had to come and scold us.
but tht did not help as ..
1 truth is hopeless ! :)
i like it tht way. so wht if we are the noisiest
we are more united tht way !

science changed to biology today.
woo rahhs men ! getting tired of phyics.
but bio talked abt cells and vrythng.
not tht nice. quite boring.
yupp. have competition tmr.
but cannot come out of class early. :(
hmm. yarr. lyk tht lorh.
eating cookies now ! delicious. yum-yum !
haha. :)

-
am i thinking too much ?

2004-07-11T23:14:00.000+08:00
hehh. i decided not to tell you !
cause you dun even care abt me [?]
but thn i keep thinking abt ..
maybe i shld just forget u.
and get on with life.
maybe im stubborn or whtever but
you used me and vrythng.
i dont even knw why i hesitate abt telling you anot.
so wht if life is short.
i dont knw. maybe i shld just end my life now.
.. wht the heck am i talking abt ?
because of you ? no kidding.
i am SO self convicing myself now.
i am jealous larh.
but you really dont even give a damn look
at me so why shld i care or even love you.

2004-07-11T22:57:00.000+08:00
time is running out
shld i tell you how i really feel ?
if i dun , i knw i will hv regrets
but i am scared of rejection
thinking of you all day
make me hesitate
shld i tell you
or shld i wait ?

-

i really dont knw wht to do

-

watch spiderman 2. dvd of course.
so nice ! -learnt tht life is short
hmm. got me thinking all day.
went lot 1 ltr
bought new sch shoes !
saw the charity show today.
so poor thng.
hias. and thn they keep saying
life is very short.
i knw tht its true and the whole day
all the shows say life is short
and we shld not have regrets.
are they hints ?<
telling me to do wht i am supposed to do ?
but i am scared of hurt.
i really am confused !
and name* haven reply me yet.
boohs. been waiting for the reply.
aiyah / so confused

2004-07-10T22:21:00.000+08:00
Will you give me a chance to care for you ?

forgotten to add a few thngs on my blog these few days.
firstly, i changed places !
its ok larh. sitting with florence was not as bad as daphne !
so now im sitting at the first row third row.
beside the window. florence's beside me and denise behind.
i like to sit by the window !
so cool lorh. can wave to ppl but it can be distracting ..
but thn the clinque have split to vrywhere.
caiyi- two rows behind me
huiyu- second row at the back.
daphne- third row at the back. beside huiyu
abi- second row same row as me.
e-main- last row at the back
loo- last row same row as me and abi.
yupps ! like tht.
and during the bus trip ystd.
the bus uncle was damn nice !
-grins at jingyu. haha

today had traning at nyp.
woke up so late !?
ask mum to send me to mrt.
thn went dwn to khatib and jingyu came in but at diff places
so met at yck.
saw meixian and yuai.
waited for the rest thn went tog.
the not playing team which means us
played with coach other sch.
-tanjong katong.
all the boys all p4 5 lk tht knw !
so cute and i like num 28. but yuai lyk 6.
abi and audrey lyk num 2o.
haha. but we won gainst them.
thn went j8 with yuai amanda winnie
for lunch. ate chicken rice.
thn went to my ahma's hse.
but thn my mama and sister were at aunt hse so went there.
so shiok. on the air-con and watched maid in mahattan.
so nice the show ! romantic.
ate a bowl of fish head noodle. arnd 3 plus
was hungry larh. but thn was so full.
came home ltr. thn ..
changed my layouts !
haha. its grey and white now !
with alittle green. love it alot.
quite nice. yarr. thts all ! (:

2004-07-09T23:11:00.000+08:00
INVASION -

hoho ! guess who's here ?
i bet you knw who. hehh
anyhows, i told you il blog for you !
cos im really bored ?
and, i dontknww.
dontknww wht to blog for my own yet.
so im here to crap. great right :)

anyhows, YOU JUST TALKED TO ME ONLINE !
okays tht's not wht im trying to sayy.
hmm oh. it's about the unknown person in your gbk.
haha, why vreone ard us the same one.
concern us but dont leave name ?
so weirddd /: you mei you ?
ohwells i dontknw wht im saying laa.

eeks. you knw, i really think somebody is so - !
i r r i t a t i n g .
blahs, maybe im being mean. hurrs
sighh i dontknw. maybe i should just be nice.
smile whn i see her and never ever bitch about her !
should i ? -shows an innocent face.
yesyes, i guess i should, -nodds.
seriously. hahaha

the brownie on my display pic look damn :) !
yummilicious great chocolatey looking brownie.
whees ! :) madness

ahhs ! im totally crapping here.
shitoes, sorrys ! hoho :D

-

okays, so im taking my leave now.
dontknw wht else to sayy laa.
dont miss me alrights ? i knw you will.
i unstd but .. haha ! il see you tmr.
rem to train hard, cos snHOCKEY gonna fight hard this year.
yayys, and prove vreone wrong !

haha and i hope youre and and stay fine okays ?
LOVE ! :D

-pok

2004-07-09T22:44:00.000+08:00
I want to forget you is because i love you too much

-

heyy ! today hai man hao de.
yupp. but one sick thng is got scolded by gwee !
and is ~~not~~ our fault [?]
wht the hell man.
anyways, thn no common test but meanddie
was rushing to do the jian bao.
so funn lorh ! thnks for those who help !
loveyouuguyys. and training was ..
cool. yupps. thn went macs and northpoint.
with jingyu of course. :)
and ..
want to thnk eleanor and name*
thnks for cheerring me on ![?]
yarrs ! and even though i do not knw who are you
but wnt to thnk you ! hope you can tell me who you are ?
u stood up for me tht time too !
haha. thnks anyways.
reveal urself ! okayy. im lame.
well bye thn !

2004-07-07T22:45:00.000+08:00
feeling lost of vrythng

-

dont knw why i still carry on.
and now most of the times ppl arnd me feel so happy.
but thn i feel so uneasy.
and whn im high
they say im disgusting.
dont knw whts wrng with ppl nowadays.
i try so hard to accomodate to their feelings but yet
... i myself in the end feel so sad.
stupid me ! im suppose to make ppl happy
yet im feeling sad myself.
wht the ..
hmms. guess i must be strng from now on
like the pu dao weng.
and let the ppl arnd me be happy
thn tht way i will be happy [?]
i guess so. i dont knw larh.

-

i like today !
some of it.
andand today's traning was quite gd for me !
haha. -grins
today me and florence was like totally aughing loudly
in maths lesson. and did not care abt mrs fung ?
haha. but act she is a nice teacher ?
yarr. dun knw why they dun lyk her.
and i found out a therory ..
if the unusual ppl are happy,
you wont knw whether is fake or real.

-

2004-07-05T22:35:00.000+08:00
I will be by ur side

hmms. today is great ![?]
yupps. in the beginning actually.
met loo at bugis mrt.
went to the shops there.
saw lots of nice stuff.
but thn no money to buy.
shop for lots of places to look for the thng i wanted.
and finally there was one shop which had tht thng.
but it was pretty tiny but nvm.
it was quite cute to me but it was act to buy for sumone
-looks at tht person
hope she likes it !
it suppose to have alot of meaning in it.
kae. thn two of us went bubble tea shop.
bought a drink and talk about our deepest secrets !
i told mine knw. not all know.
i went first thn her. also said alot of gross stuff.
thn went to plaza sing to meet huiyu.
act wanted to watch a movie but thn out of stock.
so we went to eat first. ate pizza ut.
and i learnt how to drink ice lemon tea.
even the waitress laugh ! hahas.
thn after tht took a cab to great wrld.
wanted to watch movie but the tics were also sold out.so .. we gave up the plan in the end.
so we wanted to take a free shuttle bus to city hall
but thn we waited forr so long the bus haven come.
so in the end we took cab to raffles. thn we went to the hair shop
and we had so much fun with the chopsticks.
after tht we went our seperate ways and i went to look for seniors
wanted to give jingyu sumthng so waited with her till traning ends.
slept during waiting. thn went to eat dinner
with laura jingyu rui teresa. bought carrot cake.
and they crapped so much during dinner.
tht the sad jingyu also had to smile.
thn took mrt with jingyu.
here is also another exciting part :
whn we took the mrt .. we sat at the back.
thn we listened to jingyu discman.
after awhile more ppl came in so we squeesed alittle.
thn there was these two jin fu yin fu in front of us.
they kept staring at us like guo yan gan ren di
u knw ? so irritating and fucking shit.
thn the girl abit not act chio and poor thng larh.
keep making her hair till i think it already falling of arh.
i think jingyu is the poor thng one lorh.
sat nearer to her oh-so-white legs
which is such a bad omen for the eyes.
and no matter wht we did they keep staring. [?]
lyk wht the hell. and whn the door opens at bradell.
we had to stand up so whn we standing up ..
they keep staring at us also.
abit not the girl looking at me from head to bottom thn the
guy look at jingyu from head till bottom also.
and whn we werre hearing the discman still ,
the guy scolded us 'bitch' !
he said it like chao loudly but too bad he cant beat the discman
we/i pretened not to hear. thn we were thinking
the girl sitting tht time look at us lyk we very short
thn stand up not i taller thn her. and if ruiyin was there
she taller thn the boy i tell you !
we suspected tht they keep looking at us
cause we were too irresistable [?]
haha. jealous larh tht girl. and the guy's head so small man.
they sure break up one arh.
so fucking irritating u knw.
shit them arh. lian gou dou bu ru
and the mrt sooo cold knw !
until arh mus cover urself up like bun lyk tht.
and mus touch here and there make urself warm.
at the middle of the night come and disgusting.
hiaya. these ppl do not need my mentioning.
and too white not healthy larh.
still wana show off. pls lorh.
aiyah. dun wana tok abt them adi.
onlly spoil my mood .. so bye thn !

2004-07-05T00:27:00.000+08:00
I think abt you all the day

-

i want to help you but you never give me a chance

-

the day has been .. boohs. /
hiayah. but now i fully appreciate the colour of grey !
hahas. and frogg is not tht bad aft all.
had match ystd.
and we won ! by 12-0
so proud of all of us !
well .. continue the hard work and yarrs.
anyway , went back to sch aft tht
played a short match with amanda yuai audrey lorraine winnie minfang
and well maybe othrs. thn whoever lose will treat the other team to drinks ! played for awhile and the winner was us !
thn ltr i saw how hot/amandaong plays the piano !
so pro man. lyk wht the hell. whn macs aftr tht thn went home
played some really stupid games in macs.
yarr. and today my sister really pissed me off !
cant stand her. the way she does thngs. so sickening.
but watch tv afterwards so im ok adi !
going out tmr with starrlets.
i think less thn a half.
but we gonna have good time !

-

and i feel damn irritated by someone !
so fucking shit. two of them sumore.
lyk wht the hell. so no feelings.
so rubbish. why dun they just be together and stop hurting other
people's feelings. so inconsiderate !
treat her like trash or sumthng.
dun even consider her feelings and still dare to show upp.
hiaya. heaven wil deal with u all.
just wana say tht dun care abt them ..
knw you are having a hard time trying to forgt or sumthg
but must try ur best kae ?
if you dun forget the past how can u carry on ..
yarrs.

-

shall end here. byes ! :)

2004-07-02T20:01:00.000+08:00
You are the sun tt shines in my darkness
-hahas

abigail kept saying tt phrase and i thought it was stupid
but thn it seems like it makes lots of sense.
:) anyways. today was BU day.
ok larh. not say very fun also.
thn had geog remedial at the mpr.
scored badly. but didnt fail.
went macs with seniors afterward thn went playgrnd thn went
macs agn. me and rui yin kepy reading the shui hu zhuan.
quite interesting. went amk central with jingyu ltr.
wanted to buy wristband for me audrey and yuai
but thn the colours all ..
and act the orange is quite nice but thn SOMEBODy
say canot copy her. so dun want.
i act like the grey and white one !
but thn its long. so we went j8 instead.
went to converse first and saw this VERY nicee shoe bag and shoe !
its grey and white ! hiax. love it alot.
thn went seiyu but all dun hae so went northopoint and finally
it has the colour i thot it was ok ! :)
so bought white in the end.
thn tok a bus home. thts about all i guess.
no wait - i bought a grey pencil box ! so cool rite.
at ice lemon tea. thn the lady said i can have another free one
cos got clearance sale. :) nice. so got a red one.
its soo cheap ! and somethng happened ystd.
so dissapointing ! -looks at yuai

2004-06-27T21:44:00.000+08:00
Some people just dont know tht whn
one finger is pointing at the other person
the other four is poiting at herself

going back to sch tmr !
dun whether is good or bad
but we have to face up to reality sooner or ltr
haven finish some hmk but i am not going to care abt them.
and having competiton tmr ! woohs !
gd luck to us ! hahas.
gd luck to all 20 of us.
-yupps. nods head
and hope we will come in first !
yarr. well. going adi.
and rest well vrybody !
seeya ! buhbyes.
btw, going to change the layout.

2004-06-20T14:01:00.000+08:00
i think i am that bad a person

hey ! im back !
yarrs. maybe you all dun really bother.
anyway. had my birthday ystd !
i am finally thirteenn !
yupps ! but ystd was not really tht nice and stuff.
and just now also.
dun knw why.
i think i shld really change who i really am.

2004-06-04T17:07:00.000+08:00
You are not just anybody to me

hyper happy active today !
but the blog thngy is so ..
keep typing and vrythng but it didnot publish.
-hurrs
ystd was relaxingg !
went to sun plaza and bought a hairband
thn went to coffee bean and bought a double vanilla cafe latte
was quite good !
sat there for quite long. a few hours
read finish my book while enjoying my drink
got a lift home from dad afterwards
today-
watch huanzhugege 3 and vrythng
beginn to think think
well .. dun knw
hiaz.clenaed abit of my room.
just like tht / [?]
yupps. and Somebody obviously dont trust me and vrythng
but dun care larh
if she want to continue to be lk tht thn lt her be

2004-06-04T13:44:00.002+08:00
You are not just anybody to me

the blog thingy is so blahhs.
have to re type the whole thng !
i dun wanto type adi larh.
angels brought me here is playing on the radioo !
so nice. and im feeling happy tday !
so hyper active and ystd was so relaxing !
hahas.any way just wana say obviously someone dont trust me !
boohs. nvm. humming to the song.

2004-06-04T13:44:00.001+08:00
You are not just anybody to me

the blog thingy is so blahhs.
have to re type the whole thng !
i dun wanto type adi larh.
angels brought me here is playing on the radioo !
so nice. and im feeling happy tday !
so hyper active and ystd was so relaxing !
hahas.any way just wana say obviously someone dont trust me !
boohs. nvm. humming to the song.

2004-06-04T13:44:00.000+08:00
You are not just anybody to me

the blog thingy is so blahhs.
have to re type the whole thng !
i dun wanto type adi larh.
angels brought me here is playing on the radioo !
so nice. and im feeling happy tday !
so hyper active and ystd was so relaxing !
hahas.any way just wana say obviously someone dont trust me !
boohs. nvm. humming to the song.

2004-06-04T13:35:00.000+08:00
You are not just anybody to me

i feel great toay ! :)
hahas. its great isint it [?]
i have decided to forgot abt ___ !
only a burden to me
just treat ___ as a friend.
-

Ystd

walk to sun plaza
bought a hairband.
went to coffee bean and bought a double vanilla cafe latte
not bad ! taste like milk.
sat there for hours and read finish a book.
it was lyk ren shen xiang shou !
hahas.called my father and ask him for a lift
since he was near by.
thn just chilled out at home

-

watched huanzhugege 3 just nw
so sad ! :(
anyways packed a little of my drawers.
it was so messy !
thn ate lunch and vrythng
i think i shld get some of the test papers done ?
although i dont really feel lk doing it
dun knw. just chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi
yupps. and someone obviously dont trust me.
but nvm larh. dun really want to knw
cos it really isint my buisness.
well. byes !

2004-06-02T20:39:00.000+08:00
Dont cry if the sun goes out of your life
or your tears will blind you from the stars

this ^ is written by ms zhuang !
going to remember it .

-

seems like these few days do not have activities planned for me
gives me plenty of time to think abt some thngs..
not tht i want to think
in fact i want to take it out from my brain and heart
but it just come into my mind.
keep thinking abt it day and night
vrythng i do will always link to tht thng
hiaz. don really like hols.
so much free time
and my patience is wearing !
wadever.
maybe i shld just occupy myself to the tv
wont let me think too much thn

2004-06-01T12:45:00.000+08:00
there is no hope between us
but i still hope tht we will be together

hey ! didnot blog for along time
going to be a long entry. i think

Ystd
woke up at 5.30
met yuai and audrey at yio chu kang mrt at 6.30
went to delta together.
met winniesoh at redhill.
walked to delta together.
for a while ltr vrybody stared coming
warmed up and thn played a match with cresent girls
scored 1-0 . played only the second rnd
after tht hang arnd and meixian jingyu laura ruiyin teresa
were selected for sumthng..
not really sure. in the mean time talked to lorraine.
understand quite few thngs.
went to the nearby hawker centre to eat with
laura teresa jingyu meixian and ruiyin
shared timsum. went to meixian hse aftr tht
teresa went home first cause she got camp
bought a few tibits before going her hse
played bridge and blackjack
jingyu was sleeping most of the time
did not really knw how to play bridge so got taught by them
as usual i am very slow
only ending the game thn i got to knw wht it was really abt
had a great time with thm.have a short pillow fight with meixian
tht woked me up a little.
went to amk centre to have my both ears pierce
not tht bad larh. but aftr piercing my ears were pain
hesitate quite long.jingyu felt very pek chek !
sorry ! went northpoint shoped a little with jingyu.
bought marsmellow.bu it was chewy.not tht nice
took a bus home.slept on the journey.
reached home and slept at arnd 8. was very tired.did not
have a proper rest these few days.

Wednesday 26-5-04
had the last lesson with ms lau as she was leaving
we all sat arnd in a circle.
sang sad somgs and vrythng.
annmarie and stacey danced. was really funny !
they rrocked our class !
loo cried till her whole face was redd.
had traning.but it rained quite a long time.
prepared for our 4-aside.

thursday 27-5-04
went to watch movie with seniors and yuai
watched shrek 2
quite funny.
thn somthng happened in the mrt station.
don want to talk abt it cos it overr

friday 28-05-04
ms lau and ms zhuang last day !
gonna miss thm soo muchh !
ms zhuang gave each of us a 4 leaft clover which supp to means gd luck and it was sort of st nicks sumthng and also a note.
i cried whn i read it. it was so meaningful !
and i cried even more whn loo said thank the teacher and vrythng
took a few pictures with thm.
aft the whole thng i was still crying so terribly
went to lauras hse with jingyu meixian ruiyin and lorraine
me jingyu and meixian cooked for the "three husbands"
-looks at jingyu and meixian
haha.had a great time.thn went home and packed my thngs to go lorraines hse to sleepover.dad gave me a lift.
laura and ruiyin was there already.jingyu came next.followed by teresa
watched sch of rock.but laura and ruiyin slept first.
me lorraine and jingyu went to slp in her sis room.
saw stars.it was alotalot !
woke up next morning at 5.
me and jngyu wanted to prepare breakfast for them
but.. dun knw wht happened thn dun want adi.
wnt to yio chu kang mrt to meet the rest of the team and thn went
to the padang. nearly slept the whole ttrip there
my team did not get ino semi finals.
but the other team got ! and even champs sumore.
jingyu was the best scorer !
went to hans to eat aftr tht with the sme ppl but also with foosuiying
but i went to eat maggie noodles.no money.
went to chill ? after tht with jingyu lorraine foosuiying
even stopped at newton mrt where it was chao freaky ?
nobody was there.we even prepared our hockey sticks to fight.
in the end . they bought slurpee and took a taxi home.
the driver was so freaky !
we were scared out of our wits !
reached home preety late.
bath and slept.

sunday 29-05-04

went to a prize presentation to collect money.
my uncle gave me, 2 sis and mom a lift to orchard / taka
bought two books at kinokuniya.
went suntec city the book fair and bought more books to read this hols.went to church.ate pizza hut after tht.
wenthome.slept early for match the next day.

-
think thts abt all.
have a great hols everybody !
maybe you will see a new me aftr hols!
to those who knw wht i mean !

2004-05-25T18:44:00.001+08:00
i HATE you !

thts all i can say to you
as i have no more feelings now
and my heart has never ever have a place for you
so .. don think you are very big
cause i know thts wht you think
and don act so loving whn you are not !

somebody surely spoils my mood

-

Science test sucks big time men !
i left lots of question blank ?
like wht the fuck !
eng was damn shoik today !
-winks at cai and abi
we dedicated a song to ms zhuang and all
so funny ! my mood was superr high tht time
watch long mao agn and its sosoo nicee !
went with laura teresa meixian rui jingyu yuai
to j8. watch shrek 2. i think its ok larh
not tht funny but cheered me up a little
went to eat long john silverr ltr
somethng embarrasing happened to.. hmms.
-winks at them.
vrybody was laughing lyk siao !
went home ltr. somethng embarrasing happen to me at the mrt..
dun feel lyk saying cause ppl might say im trying to gain pity or wadever shitt.going to clear all my stuff in my room ltr-dashaochu !
cause its chao messy and vrythng ?
yupps.got traning tmr. dun really feel lyk going afterr..

-

you dont understand me at all
you don even care abt my feelings
you don even give a damn care abt where im going
you don even ask whether im fine
you don even check on me
you don this and tht !
whn i thot you did ; _______

guess my moodswings is back and vrythng

want to tell this to somebody ;
Dont think too highly of urself !

2004-05-25T18:44:00.000+08:00
i HATE you !

thts all i can say to you
as i have no more feelings now
and my heart has never ever have a place for you
so .. don think you are very big
cause i know thts wht you think
and don act so loving whn you are not !

somebody surely spoils my mood

-

Science test sucks big time men !
i left lots of question blank ?
like wht the fuck !
eng was damn shoik today !
-winks at cai and abi
we dedicated a song to ms zhuang and all
so funny ! my mood was superr high tht time
watch long mao agn and its sosoo nicee !
went with laura teresa meixian rui jingyu yuai
to j8. watch shrek 2. i think its ok larh
not tht funny but cheered me up a little
went to eat long john silverr ltr
somethng embarrasing happened to.. hmms.
-winks at them.
vrybody was laughing lyk siao !
went home ltr. somethng embarrasing happen to me at the mrt..
dun feel lyk saying cause ppl might say im trying to gain pity or wadever shitt.going to clear all my stuff in my room ltr-dashaochu !
cause its chao messy and vrythng ?
yupps.got traning tmr. dun really feel lyk going afterr..

-

you dont understand me at all
you don even care abt my feelings
you don even give a damn care abt where im going
you don even ask whether im fine
you don even check on me
you don this and tht !
whn i thot you did ; _______

guess my moodswings is back and vrythng

want to tell this to somebody ;
Dont think too highly of urself !

2004-05-22T10:46:00.000+08:00
When I thought i could lean on you
you left me for her

blahhs.having moodswings now.wadever
I did a great deed ystd !
I helped patch up stacey and ann-marie !
If you two fall apart thn there will be no 1 truth . :)
hahas.I was so touched of the whole scenerio tht i cried ?
so touching. anyways stayed back after sch to study with
jean,loo,audrey and e-main. audrey did not really study ?
she keeps talking and jumping arnd ! hahas.
nearly finished the whole book.had a great time with them -winks
and me and the seniors played add-the-cash agn.
was chao fun but thn we did not get through.
meixian got through but she hang up !chao fun-smiles broadly at them
and mej ingyu and teresa did not like two ppl.
we shared our opinions and we discovered more bad things abt them.
thn went to yuai's hse to cut hair. had spagethhi for dinner at
her hse.she was chao funny larh.sonic ! hahas
she and the mother the same one. keep making us laugh
so whn yuai had tuitoin. me and audrey went to cut hair.
my hair is not bad larh.shorter and thinner.
went home with jean to sembawang mrt.
thn her dad drove me home on the way-thnks !
watched shows but thn slept early cause was very tired
ate 3 buns for breakfast thn watched te recorded sunwukong.
going to syudy seriously ltr.planned to finish the rest of the book in 1 hour thn read and mermorise adi ! yahhs !yupp.and all the best for monday's paper !

2004-05-20T20:10:00.000+08:00
We were not meant to be
so i shld not force anythng

i am so going to watch oc tonight and die die also must watch even if eyes closing cause i did not watch for like so longg !
yupps. watched a short shenhua gu shi today aftr morning jog
was quite stupid but nice ! i love the birds and i hate the ending .
-boohs. anyway yupp.assembly ended at 1.40 today.was early cause got prize presentation.but our class had to do survey
stayed back with naiying justina ziqian.anges joined us lter
after we studied for quitee longg. they went back.joined the seniors agn. they were studying also. thn we played the addthecash agn.
we got the FIFTHCALLER !!! but NOT the tenth !?
it was so sicko and laura pones was the 1 got pick.we all were so surprised tht it got through ! so funny ! hahahas.
trying the game agn tmr.maybe gonna yuai hse to cut hair also.dunknw larh.went home with jingyu.dunknw why she so sad today.
and dearr jingyu..hope you cheer up kae ? dun be so sad adi .(:smiles always and all.I will always be here if you need a lending ear or a
crying shoulder kae ? iloveyouuu!

2004-05-19T19:48:00.000+08:00
When will you be mine

I want to go to the beach !
-blahhs. keep talking abt it these few days and make me wana go !
lying on the beach and seeing the stars !
hahaha. my imagination is running wild .
mohad was so fierce today
chenlaoshi cant really talk cause she haven recover
stayed back in sch today for sci and geog remedial
not bad larh. learnt alot from the sci remedial ?!
cause did not really listen at the previous lessons
so paid extra attention for ths lesson
thn geog was ok. went canteen to study with loo abi daph
met seniors there. sat with them. thn studied .
but i didnt really study ? dunnknw just copy notes and stuff
thn loo and abi left. thn me and the seniors called the PERFECT 10
radio for the add the cash thingy cause teresa like took down the numbers thn we tried ? so whn the third number comes out
we immeditly called the line.
meteresajingyulauraruiyin all tried.
called a zillion times ! but thn cannot.
hiaz.whn they annouce they had a winner teresa was like
Bitch ! so loudly and it woahs ! fill the whole canteen
with her bombastic voice . not sure whether i spelt correcly
but had a great time with thm and calling the line also !
hahas. nearly have a great time with them everytime
yupps.went home with jingyu. met mum at sembawang mrt agn.
fetch me home so i dun need to walk .
LOVEYOU MUM !
thn whn we were going home we drive past and we saw the sun setting ?!
omg! it was lyk SOSOOSOSOSOSOSO niCE !
tried to capture the scenerio with my pone but very blur
thn mummy even stopped the car for me to take !
so cool lorh! is lyk not everytime you get to see the sun setting?
Fate men. okes. enough abt tht.im going to spend the next 1 hr to revise my geog so..yupps.bye !

2004-05-18T15:50:00.000+08:00
If i cld find you now
things wld get better

Chenlaosshi never come today !
Mohadd never come today !
hahas. both teachers never come but thn still had some work to do
went home with audrey after sch
wanted to go north point popular to buy a new file ?
but thn realised i had no money and i still have debts haven returned
sia. begin to fall inlove with oceanavenue
:) nice song. still have ipw haven do and geog revision..
realised geog test is on MONDAY !
and still got alot of thngs never do lyk maths revision.
hiaz /

2004-05-16T20:51:00.000+08:00
Ill come to you by moonlight
though hell should bear the way

Went to tiong bahru foodcourt to eat today
quite nice the food escpecially the chee kuah
ate hokkien mee little of this and tht
quite full adi
family went chong pang just now
i stayed it the car
dont feel like walking and i was thinking about something serious
was chilling out with a book today
quite interesting larh
dunnoe why but i hate to go to sch tmr ?
Dun really feel like going /=
went pass the esplanade today
remind me of..ystd-winks at laurateresaruiyin
the hairstyle really looklike alot !

2004-05-15T21:40:00.000+08:00
I hope you will notice me;
but you never will

-
had traning today. woke up at 6:15
and sorry jingyu ! caused you to wake up so early and the ave 2 gate also not open hai ni have to walk 1 big rnd with me.
sorry ! :( cause i feel lyk going to sch early ? dunnow why /
went orchard with teresa laura siewmin jingyu ruiyin
watch 50 first dates with teresa laura siewmin
jingyu and ruiyin watched van helsing instead.
was damn nice the show lorh ! so romantic and we were wondering if there rally was this kinda guy on the earth; maybe there is or maybe there isnt. hope so. lyk the song in the movie.
i was lyk so broke lorh. went orchard with 2plus ?
not even enough to buy movie ticket ?
had to borrow frm everybody.
went taka aftr tht. went foodcourt.
was so tempted with the food ?
laura teresa bought and i was sosososo tempted ?!
sia. didnt buy in the end. siewmin in the end bought the thingy for us
met jingyu and rui aftr their show but thn siewmin and jingyu have to go cause they got something on.
went wisma and shop shop - cause did not have money ?
went heeren thn. went to eat mache.
called tht a high class place .
bought a plate of potato.thn me and rui share.
thn sumthing happened there to laura.
very funny leh. i think i shld not tell ?
yupps.think im not going to sleep so early tonight?
still quite awake yet sleepy.
-

My sister is an IRRITATING BITCH !!!

2004-05-14T22:55:00.000+08:00
There is a reason for everything
but what is the reason of my presense in this wrold ;

-

Yahhs! im selected for 4-aside !
hahas. grp members ae : me yuai audrey vinnie winnie beatrice
ok maybe its not the ideal team but im sure we can be united
if we wants to ? yupps. so we must stay united and defeat the rest of the teams incluiding ouyr sch ones lyk the c'div and sec 3
and maybe not all of us can go in to finals but maybe
we can lyk have a team go into finals thn it will also be
ST NICKS glory ! wohoos !

-
mohadd scolded someone at the begiining of the lesson
and its lyk whts his prob ?
Daphne did not come today . went to the doc .
hope you get well soon and come back asap okay ?!
sandra was sick also ?
hope you recover fast fast ! and we wil miss you both !
dnt i painted my wood [hockey sticks]
quite nice ? noyt as bad as i expected.
after finish we sat outside the dnt room - facing the netball court
and the ambience was quite nice ? it was windy ! (:
and we talk abnt ghost stories ! although the qi fen not vry nice.hahas
-

went macs before going taning.
fiveghosts,abigailtan,winiesoh
we all took out all our coins and see wht we can buy thn .
bought 2 packets of large fries and some bought ice-cream.
while we were sitting we had part of our 5ghosts meeting
tok alittle but thn it was interupted cause laura said we had to go for training adi.met the seniors at macs too cause jingyu and ruiyin cut hair.went back to sch together.
and winnie : don worry too much and always look
on the bright side of life kae ?
had training.was not too bad.not tht tiring cause today warm up
we were so far frm the team ?! aiyah always the last larh.
but sorry tht we have to trouble jingyuandruiyin ?!
went tuition ltr.and the cute guy i was saying made me change the impression soooo much ? he sudd come in wif his hair dyed ?
had ear-holes and wore the sex-bands? omg lorh.thot he was a gd guy larh but my impression change totally today.hiaz
nan dao shi jie shang mei you hao nan ren le mah
so pity.father pick me up and bought waffles for me !:)
went home and watch the recorded show and i HATE
the ending fo rlashionglamei ! i dun wan him to die !
why must he die..so unfair.sick.hahas.so jidong
and i missed SURVIVOR !!!!???
I didnt knw today have larh.till yuai told me tht winnie told her
rahhs ! i had missed the renioun and the last episode adi larh..
so idiot leh /

got traning tmr and have
fiveghosts meeting tmr also .
goanna pour out all our probs !
yupp if not we are gonna topple and i dun want tht

-

ICANLEARNDRUMS !
isit cool ?! (: -thousands smile on my face.
i beg so long and they finally said yes ?
but i have to pay the fees myself.
NVM. i CAN LEARN DRUMS !
SO COOL ! hahas.at least this can keep me happy for the week !

2004-05-13T22:18:00.000+08:00
Everday is a new day gained ;
so we shld treasure the present
and not worry or be filled with
disgust as you might not know
whn you will drop dead

-

learned this neaming from the show
it is quite true .. ?
yupps. wanted to just die today but thn
my mood turned for the better so i did not.
and we shld treasure the present and not keep thinking abt the past
cause we cant change it or go back to time.
we had regretted so many thngs we did last time
so instead of thinking and buring urself in the thoughts of history,
why dont we look into the future and treasure everyone arnd you.
ok i knw i toking alot of sense but thn . -rahhs
slept the whole assembly today ..?
its lyk huh . and i completely never hear a thing the contestants were saying except maybe the first two ?
yupps.went amk pizza hut with laura and mei xian today
ordered a meal and we all shared.
and got sumone.. sitting behind us and it was so funny larh..
whn they were talking we kept making comments and shes not tht pretty at all ? yet theres two boys flirting over her..
and i dun see wht she sees in them
and now thn i knw me and laura shares the samw views in guys. hahas.
we lyk the same kind.
had a really fun time with them.
went popular after tht . i bought a new blue pen and a orangee pen
i also bought a new book ! its the xutianshi one larh !
so damn nice ! cant wait to read it but i have to finish angelas ashes first.and meixian not abit buy one whole set lyk 40 bucks ?
laura bought book for her fren as birthday pres.
after tht went back home.
went tuition which doesnt sucks as i thot.
still have alot of work to do and dnt still haven paint finish yet larh..Daphne not gonna sch tmr ? so sad larh..
nobody tok to me..by the way we made up so yarrh.
gonna have a fiveghosts tok tmr and we goanna change our clique
name coz we decided to add aum1 else and tht will be said ltr..
so yarr. gonna pack my thngs now.
tata ! and dun keep thinking abt history kae ?
cause we are living in the future !
and the future rocks ! -i doubt so

2004-05-12T22:12:00.000+08:00
If you die,i die
but if i die , will u die with me ?
i knw yuai,meixian,ruiyin,jingyu lorraine will die with me
and i will die with you all too
-

chao tired larh.
sia.my parents are so..
wadever.dun feel lyk toking abt it ?
feel darm irritated with someone ?
so fustrating.
had chinese test today.
was quite hard ?
cause i nearly dunnoe vrythng ? ok mybe not tht kua zhang
but yarrs.and..
jingyu bought for me chocos !
thnks alot ! `loveyyaa ! :)
had goeg remedial before training .
dunnoe why but thn during the remedail
me and yuai both become very sad ?
lyk we both thot of..yarrs.thn turn very very menmenbule
after rememdial still have training ?
ran 2 rnds . after tht we-meyuaidaphabbo-did warm ups.
after tht we both sat at the track there?
thinking abt .. laid down and thn wanna say thnks to those
who comforted us ? yupps.
thn training was chao slack ?
after training
me,ruiyin lorraine and jinyu walked arnd the track ?
talked abt wht has been bothering me ?
blurted it all out.got advices frm thm.
was quite a nice stroll cause part of it we were holding hands ?
hahas.darm nice.yuai walked with meixian so whn we meet
halfway we were lyk hello?haha.-winks at them
thn we stopped and meixian went home.we all
wore all socks and shoes first . scared ms lim scold
thn meyuaijingyuruiyin walked agn ?
talked more . and the sky was darm nice .
the colour especially.thn we laid on the track and admimiring the track . toking abt things lyk if u die i will also die with you.
thn went macs with ruiyin and jingyu. sat for awhile thn went home with jingyu.on the way we were toking abt how nice it wld be if we were animals ? thn no need to go through so much pain .
lyk love this kinda shit things.
came home.ate dinner.curry ? it was lyk so hott !
cant take it and gave it to my father.yarr.watch the show !
i am so inlove with it! love it alot !
so nicee! hearing perfect on the radio now.so nice.
hiaz.thot alot today . i think i am gonna just live like this and
not try to forget anythng ?
dunnoe.all this shit larh.

-

yuai jingyu ruiyin lorraine and meixian :
hey ! thanks alot for like wht happened today . yupps.
thnks for all the counselling and advices.
thot alot abt it and came to a final decision.
yupps ! really had a great time with you all !
thnks for being there whn i needed you all !
if you have anything to say abt ,
i will be here even if the wrld is falling apart.
`loveyouall ! fathug !

Laura
Sorry ! i knw you were vry pissed off with us right ?
sosososososososo sorri ! we did not listen to wht you were saying
and got so irritated . and i wasnt in a vry gd mood and you had
to comfort us even whn u were sad ? sorry alotalotalot !
we promise to listen attentifvely to you next time !
`huggs

2004-05-11T16:38:00.000+08:00
You never give us a chance to be together

I'll do anything
I give you my wrds
i will wait forever
to be ur girl

Just call out my name
i'll be there
to show you
how much i care
-

had first mohadd lesson today ?
not tht bad larh. but im not sure larh
first time only. and i can tell his jokes are lame ?
had geog lter ? got 21 1/2 / 30 ?
not bad rite ?was like claaping for myself and mouth open bigbig
larh.look so stupid.but ms lau laugh at me.haha
had eng after tht ? got back compre ?
16 1/2 / 30 . ~~very good larh~~
and ms zhuang say tht she tried very hard to help us pass ?
so it prove tht im darm lan ! must buck up leh .
and tmr have chi test ? haven started studying yet im here
but nvm larh.went to make ez-link card after sch ?
waited fr lyk 0300-0345 ? studied alittle ?
yupp.thn took bus home.realised tht sumone
life experience so same like mine ? hahas-i think u knw hu u are
-
i think i shld get something done by today ?
hiayah.but i feel very tired and sad .?
stupid me.moodswings agn.
-

:(((((((((((((((((((((

2004-05-10T20:52:00.000+08:00
hAPpy BirTHdAY dENISE !

hope you had enjoyed a wonderful day and had appreciated all the nice
present we gave you ! although we were alittle seperated this year and you had ur own circle of friends..remember tht i will always be here still if you need me okae ?! and this is the 5th birthday i celebrated with you ! so smile always and be the usual denise i had known kae ?
We had went throught thick and thin together to come to this stage of friendship ! so i dun wana break or destroy it ! once agn..
happy birthday ! :) smile always and i will be here if your wrld falls apart.

2004-05-10T17:14:00.000+08:00
If you die and left me alone,
i swear i will cry till my tears fill the pacific ocean
and my heart will be broken to a million pieces .
-
will you do tht for me ? did not dare ask you tht.
-
sudd felt very happy.
i shall describe every single detail ?
went sch today by sch bus
listen to the radio on the way ?
came down from the bus ask jean and jac
to help me put my bag and file in class ?
thnks ! cause i tot we were running morning jog ?
but all thnks to my injured leg and yuai abbo did not run,
i did not run also.but they rest of the team ran ?
jingyu and siewmin ran 3.the rest ran 2
thn had assebly.did not really hear wht they saying.
cant be bothered.thn had aliitle of pc
did nopt hear the hu toking also.
had pe.softball.so fun ! but our oppenents are strong ?
so ..yarrs.went back for maths.
ofcourse did not hear her speaking agn.
plan a hockey outing while maths lesson.
for those who want further info.
we will be having a meeting on wed.
thn recess.ate kway teao.drank icelemon tee.
aiyah dun really feeel lyk saying adi..
so in a simple way of saying is,
i had a great time today and did not hear wht teachers are saying.
after sch went cousin hse.met him at braddel mrt.
so kind rite.specially go mrt wait for me !
and he did not let me wait.
hahas.went his hse ate dumpling and drank liang cha.
burn songs..explore the hse and his medals..talk for a whle
thn went home adi..was so scared tht i was lost ?
in an area tht im unfamiliar with ?
but thnks to winnie's accompany and msg.
i manage to go back home safely.
thts all i think ?
-
i miss you badly cant wait to see you
-
baahs
have xiangsibing agn

2004-05-09T22:44:00.000+08:00
Happy mother's day

hope my mum and all the mothers in the wrld had a great time ?
(: remeber to smile always mum ! and if ur daughter requests something
the best you cld do is accept and not reject. :)
think my mum wont be able to see this..
i will die if she realli did.

woke up at 11.30 lyk tht ?
kinda late thought..slept at 12 plus to study geog ystd
watched huanzhugege..so touching.
if only.. nvm
thn mum and sisters came back from foodcourt
bought for me lunch
thnks ! gave mum my card i made for her.
she smiled and said thnks ! hahas.
thn sought of studied. flip pages only laa
thn dad came back..thought he wld buy roast duck for dinner
but apparently he did not..watch alittle of shuangtianzhicun
before going out for dinner. went to sakae sushi at the
sembawang shopping centre outlet.ate till very full.
walk arnd thn went giant.
bought 2 notebooks and ankle sock
came back home and watch the rest of the recorded gambling show ?
so nice. hiayah..if only..wadever.
thn came here to blog now before sleeping.
looking forward to tomms [?]
dunnoe why but sudd fill like i like sch and everybody
but hate the teachers still..i think im back to the old me !
hope it lasts ! well cya tomms !

2004-05-08T20:40:00.000+08:00
ok ! going to have a long and happy entry today !
so you all must have the patience.
Gonna blog for ystd also . MUST!

Firstly-wanted to say Happy Belated Birthday Jingyu !
I will still be here even if everybody give up on you kae ?
smiles always ! :)

Ystd
Had not a good time ystd morning.
was sad all the way till traning ?
moodswing agn ? sia.wadever.the new me.
yupp.thn lter had traning ?
coach said my hits improved ! and with a little more improvement
maybe i can get into the team !but better not say so highly first.
yuaiandaudrey went to para..dunnoe wht. was kinda boring and quiet
without them ?and some of the sec twos went to a mental talk.
was very little ppl ?but still the same.training ws continued.
we were all hoping it wld not.
thn after traing.yuai and audrey came back with the cake we juniors
bought for jinyu ! and the marchbabes ! .everybody took a piece
thn we got sick of it. but still left a big piece.more thn 1/4
and we had to finish the many bottles of drink also.
so we played a game called zhong qi mi ma.
-winks at everybody
loser must either drink one cup or eat a bite of the cake
was kinda twice. loser me. but it was fun !
thn lter whn we were getting the hang of it.
the stupid auntie called us to go out coz the sch have to close soon
thn we went to macs with pqs,fiveghost and minfang
some of our seniors went toilet and ate.
so the rest of us went playgrnd.-fiveghost,jingyu,lorraine,siewmin,minfang
sat on the swing and sang songs.so dark but fun.
thn we started to sit in a circle to do some mischevious things.
so funny ! and fun ! thn lter laura,meixuan,rui and teresa
came to say gd bye.thn soon abi mother came and daphne also went.
ltr siew min also went home.
so left me,yuai,jinyu,lorraine and minfang
went macs coz we tot so late and dark.
carried everythng there.sat outside.all of us bought food to eat as we were
hungry.thn we started to play agn.some of thm so bitchy larh. but still had a great time.-winks at them
after a long time we went home.
all of us except lorraine sat the same taxi .
went to minfang hse first,dropped off minfang and yuai.
thn went my hse first coz i was scared to sit alone in the taxi.
had a small talk with jingyu.
and want to tell you tht if you wanto cry out loud u can cry all you want
coz i will be here to lend you a crying shoulder kae ?
and even if the whole wrld give up on you, i will still be here.
reached home.bathe and thn watch the recorded 9oclock show
lashionglamei.very nice leh ! thn slept adi coz very sleepy.
Today
woke up at 6.30 . took mrt to khatib.waited for jingyu
went yck together.took bus to sch.changed socks on the bus.
after we drop off the bus, we hear discman together and
we wanted to planned hao to walk in lyk everythng none of our buisness
and listen to the songs.whn went in i saw someone..smile immediatly came
onto my face-winks and smile broadly at jingyu.
ltr after hearing few more songs.started warm up.we were
not bad today.did not left until very behind.
thn coach come and us we all to do some drills and excersice.
thn time came very fast.we played matches.i was defending.
and coach said i was aggresive ! and if i knw how to pass to my teamates
thn i wld have improve agn ! hahas.but thn i hurt alot of ppl
by knocking onto them .sorri !-amamnda,yuai and daph and weilin.
Sorry ! i think i used to much force tht now my hands and legs are aching ?
after training me yuai audrey daphne laura and ruiyin sat down
to lyk have a talk ? but ended up dunnoe tok wht !
we even planned to have an outing at the beach !
june hols ! cant wait.we will have such a fun time !
thn after the 'talk'audrey and daphne went home
ruiyin went to tok to lorraine.
so me yu ai and laura played schildish game but it was fun all the same/.
:) thn yuai went home.jingyu and lorraine wok up from their beauty sleep
we went macs together except lorraine.ruyin went amk central adi.
so the 3 of us ate lunch.unfornuately we sat near the soyabean shop
and it kept banging so i bank back.but thn it caused alot of ppl to stare
at me / us so embrassing.sorry-looks apogetically at jingyuandlorraine
thn we saw another disgusting thing.
was wondering if she also have why dun we have ?
-hurrs.rubbish-looks at the two
thn jingyu mum came to pick her up
lorraine let me take a lift to amk mrt at the same time pick up meixian .
meixian: you look pretty with ur hair down and wearing a hairband leh !
thn went home.have a long afternoon nap.lyk slept at 3 woke at 7 ?
ate lunch thn here i am.guess i was tired after these 2 days events.
but it was fun !haven got started on my geog revision and hmk ?
better start doing.-give face
well, had a really great time today
took my mind off things.
the old me is back now !

2004-05-06T17:26:00.000+08:00
If one grain of sand represent that I miss you,
the beach will be full of sand by now

Had a not bad time today..
but maybe not tht gd
was quite ok act tis morning
thn lter had morning jog.
was raining so ran indoors.
vrybody was very slack larh.
half of it we were walking
thn lter had eng enrich.not tht bad.
thn had eng. did finish my work earlier
so went recess with same ppl earlier.
thn after tt came back had e.lit.
where i sudd started to feel very tired and sad
I duunnoe why but just felt lk tht.
got moodswings recently. it just nt the usual me..
the old jessalynn dont usually have moodswings.
thn was very tired and sad for the whole day.especially maths
so pissed at fung .not sure why.buts its not her fault
its the unusual me.thn lter went hall for pc
was very bu shuang already.
thn the yuai and audrey sudd came from the back and pushed me relli hard ?
was lyk pissed/sad/tired/confused
all together ? thn after they pshed me i sort of cry ?
= / sicko larh.dont feel lyk elaborating.
thn lter after everythng went to eat tou hua with audrey
went to yishun together.
went to interchange to make card act.
but thn they sudd say tht have to bring birth cert along larh.
with a passport size photo
lyk huh ? they never even say so I cant make.
but audrey is spoil so can ,make but mus wait till 4.30 and its was lyk
3.15 so we went to take photo-only me.thn lter went hairshop.
wanted to buy hair stuff.thn i thot of mini toons.maybe got nicer thngs
so went there .bought marshmellow. thn we thot of buyng pres
for urm.. yarrs. so went to gift -a-name.niothing.went card and such
nothing.so went back mini toons and bought the pres.
thn lter I have to bring home cause audrey scared tht her dad scolded her
thn we went back to interchange to take bus.audrey thn took her card.
yupp.thn reached home..received a call..so freaky ! but happy !
haha.it means i have potential but lter they see me thn reject me.
sia.nvm.forget it.hope everybody have a great time ?
and not like the new me ? yarrs.i promised tht the old me will be back soon.
NONONONONONO Common test tmr ! hahas.
all smiles. (:

2004-05-05T20:44:00.000+08:00
Everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings
I feel so small,
I guess I need you baby ;

Heelllo!!! 2 gd thngs to annouce today !
1- I got gold for Napfa ! vrybody pls feel happy for me ! (:
Must thank- Louisa,Ms zhuang,Mr mohad,Ms chen and I truthians ! - muzhishang . hahas
without them maybe i wun even get gold. (:
you all rocks my socks !!!

2nd- I finally found sumone whos birthday is same as me !!!
Finally !!! Imagine-whn she is celebrating her 1st birthday ,
sumone in this wrld is born ! and thts me ! (: hahas.yupps.

today alot happened ! lessons first till recess thn lter geraldine had to re-run
her napfa. so we went down to support her.
but the rest of 1 truthians who didnt went down shouted frm above !
-canteen i mean. starting to find our class vry united.
thn whn geraldine ran a few rnds, me,e-main,abbo decided to run with geraldine.to support her all the way ! So fun.and i did a gd deed !
thn had lessons agn till end of the day.
ate lunch wif yuaiaudreye-mainandaudrey
thn went to forumm for napfa.
started with sitandreach first. did not tht gd.
thn went to pull-ups.darm scary and nervous larh.
thn whn it is my turn. so scared tht i cant do well ?
ms zhuang enouraged me.so did some of i T ppl !
they were very supportive ?!yupps.-muzhishang
thn did 15 !!!-cheers ! haha.so happy !
thn went to shuttles. act went to mdm zhang.but waited for so long
the queue did not move ? so went down to tabletennis court there.
did not bad but tried second time thn got A.
went to sit-ups next.haha.still remember..
cannopt say anythng.thn lastly went to standing broad jump.
i think i did not really did tht well
but mr mohad write my score like not bad.Thank you!
yupps.thn got hockey training.did not relly train.
instead we the sec ones went to find and pick the balls-shall not elaborate.
thn after the whole thing whn we going back.we the 5-ghosts sudd deciced to do sumthng so coach wun be so angry.
we held hands thn stand in a row,took a deep bow and said thnk you! -second time said have a nice day.hahas.so funny.even mrs chan like it alot.
thn went hm wif jinyu ate tou hua also.thn sang songs on the bus.
vry nice.nearly empty but gt sum1 infront.
but hu cares.thts all i think.
going to see 9 o clock show now.tata bverybody,.
really had a nice day today. (:

2004-05-04T17:16:00.000+08:00
Can't you see tht im your angel,
your forgotten angel ?

Had a niceee wallet for birthday pres !
thankyou huiyu ! hahas. thnkyou mum !
thankyou ann-marie !
realise im a thick-skinned person ? so fast ask ppl for pres adi.
and my birthdy haven come yet ? hurrs.
anyway had a nicee wallet from huiyu ! -same as loo
but hu cares.its nice. had a new bag from mum also.
the roxy one larhs.today sch was finee ?
but my elit is chao sucky ? got 13/25
nearly failled ? sia.vrybody lyk got 15 larh. and im so lousy in it
wadever.thts it ? thn went to town with huiyu.
went to paragon first to eat.
huiyu ate brownie-so nicee ! i ate the orangejulius hotdog bread plus sprite.thn went metro get huiyu mum's the sk II mask ?
ex larh. 114.thn lter her sis atm card declined.
so mus pay cash ? yupps. thn went to the quiksilver shop
huiyu wanted to see/buy a bag ?
and i sun bian help see whether got lorraine want the wallet anot .
but dun even have both ? thn went heeren to buy
the wallet we both wanted. huiyu bought diff design.yupss.
went to the flash splash. no bags and also no wallets nice for lorraine.
so sorri looraine ! cant find any ? nx time kae ?
thn lter went hmv to see whether have the cd daphne wanted ?
-out of stock ? shity-vrythng also dun have.
thn lter went hm liao.haiyo.vry scared of my napfa tmr !!!
:( aiming for gold act. but my pull ups push me down i think
i cant do so many larh. so now aiming for silver or pass larh.
aiyah.nvm larh. try harder next year lorh.and also cannot
lin shi bao for jiao adi now ? so i let my ming zhu ding or god.
hiaya.not sure.but whts meant to be is meant to be
yupps.have to go bath now.
seeya lter or tomms !
--i vry scared !!? :(

2004-05-02T21:27:00.000+08:00
trying all my might
to forget all the joy and pos thinking
you brought me ;

didnt do alot today.
eat , watch tv, eat thn watch tv agn.
siaz..im getting fat. keep eating durian !
its so nicee ! :) haha. but its fattening !
boos . was pretty ok today .
except for a few headaches .
and lyk now i also have.
kept slapping myself . it does work actually.
got sch tmr ! hoping to see my friends !
dunnoe why so excited. -slaps myself. [tot of sumthng]
my bag ! hahas. yupps. cant wait to use it !
thn hoping to .. -slaps myself agn
rubbish me.wadever. forget it
cant wait to see vryone !
and audrey , laura.
can help me think of a new layout or sumthng.
pls ? i beg you .. dots..
`iloveyou !!!
seevryone tmr !!!
loveyouall !!!

2004-05-02T13:48:00.000+08:00
If a hundred horses and thousands can pull me away from you ,
I swear i wont be here by now ;
If cutting of wrists would make me forget all the pain in me,
my wrist wld not be able to have space to cut by now ;
If tearing of heart can make me forget you,
I swear my heart will be torn to pieces by now ;
I tried so hard to forget you
and when i tot i had succeded
thousands thoughts of you came to my mind
you had not only cause my heart to bleed
you had also shot a bullet in my head.

If a bullet can make you love me ,
If a bullet can make you look at my direction
If a bullet can make you talk to me
If a bullet can make you fufill all my desires
I swear my head will be full of bullets by now.

When will you ever noticed me ?
-
I love teresa ! hahas.thanks a lot for hearing me out
and giving me advices.I knw you had tried very hard also
so im going tot put in twice the effort
no matter how much hurt it cost.
`Iloveyoutillwrdscantdescribe
-
there are many fishes in the sea
there are many pebbles in the sand ;
I believe in this thing called love.
Dont let todays disappointment cast a shadowon tmr's dream
-

2004-05-01T22:53:00.000+08:00
I thought i cld forget you
but in actual fact
u are still in my heart
making the wound deeper day by day ;
i am going to try real hard to forget you
cause i knw im not worthy for you
and i knw i will be even more hurt
if i continue to like you ;
im going to put all my heart to forget you
cause im scared of hurt

2004-05-01T19:41:00.001+08:00
Thought it over ;
begin to find a reason for vrythg
and found tht you were always in my heart.

Heya ! so long never blog adi ! finally had found a time !
Want feeling vry good this wk ? so didnt feel lyk blogging.
especially ystd . had moodswings. sudd 'cause of sumthng
thn begin to turn vry sad.was so sick ystd day larhhs.
had flu and stomachache.thn had headache.didnt want to train.
mrs chan say ask my mum to pick me up.didnt wanto cause she working
and scared she scold me ? working halfway thn call her to come.
teacher dun even understnd.thn was lyk so sad.cant concentrate
during lessons and tuition.thinking of sumthng.
thn had thought it over.thought till real careful.
and just thought of sumthng :

thinking pos is worse thn neg as if u think neg
and thn the truth reveals,the hurt will be greater
_____

yupps.enough of tht sad thngs.
bought a new roxy bag today.
can cancel tht on my list
went out wif loo,daph and yuai !
met at yiochukang mrt.yuai was late.
thn went to orchard first to go wisma
the shuftshit shop-looks and grins sheepishly at loo,daph n yuai :)
i wanted to buy the roxy bag . mum gave me 50
cause act wanted to buy another one.but thn saw the other one.
thn gave 10 extra out.59 bucks.thn the suftshit shop dun hv 3
cause lter loo and daph lyk it too.so loo bought first.
ask the assistant to book for us at pacific plaza
thn we went there to buy .
thn lter went urm.macs to eat.didnt really eat.
yuai bought meal.we bought drinks onli.
so kept eating yuai's fries.hahahas.sorri !
went fareast to buy clothes and other stuffs
didnot buy no money.but loo bought clothes.she and daph
also bought pencil case.thn lter went taka.shop and eat aliitle.
thn daph went home and thn i saw my uncleandaunt !
they were eating at one of the restaurants. rich !went to say hello
and byes2.lame.but so fun seeing them.oyah also saw jeanette aw.
-jingjing-holland.v she is darm pretty.yuai saw at first,thn
she turn her head arnd so i saw.but they didnt saw so we went chasing her?
hahas.lame but yarrss.but didnt get to see her and we were already at the
end so turn back.thn after daph went home.we went heeren.loo bought
wallet.wanted to buy the same model ?! quite cheap lorh.nice too.
thought for a long time but thn dunwant.
save to buy with audrey during june.thn lter a lady cornered us for wht horroscope thng ?only aim for loo.hahas.tok for a long time but thn lter rejected her.oh.we all bought audrey somethng also.happy anot ?
u get to knw on monday.
cant wait for monday ! all have same bag.and i think we are the onli first three to have this bag ?hahas.had a great time today.but thn thougt of wht i had been thinking.thn abit menmenbule.hiaya.forget about it larh.
oh-1 more thing .GD LUCK meixian and lorraine for tmr match !
we will always support you!
-
blog quite long today.go adi larh.head want to pain adi.seeya on monday!

2004-05-01T19:41:00.000+08:00
Thought it over ;
begin to find a reason for vrythg
and found tht you were always in my heart.

Heya ! so long never blog adi ! finally had found a time !
Want feeling vry good this wk ? so didnt feel lyk blogging.
especially ystd . had moodswings. sudd 'cause of sumthng
thn begin to turn vry sad.was so sick ystd day larhhs.
had flu and stomachache.thn had headache.didnt want to train.
mrs chan say ask my mum to pick me up.didnt wanto cause she working
and scared she scold me ? working halfway thn call her to come.
teacher dun even understnd.thn was lyk so sad.cant concentrate
during lessons and tuition.thinking of sumthng.
thn had thought it over.thought till real careful.
and just thought of sumthng :

thinking pos is worse thn neg as if u think neg
and thn the truth reveals,the hurt will be greater
_____

yupps.enough of tht sad thngs.
bought a new roxy bag today.
can cancel tht on my list
went out wif loo,daph and yuai !
met at yiochukang mrt.yuai was late.
thn went to orchard first to go wisma
the shuftshit shop-looks and grins sheepishly at loo,daph n yuai :)
i wanted to buy the roxy bag . mum gave me 50
cause act wanted to buy another one.but thn saw the other one.
thn gave 10 extra out.59 bucks.thn the suftshit shop dun hv 3
cause lter loo and daph lyk it too.so loo bought first.
ask the assistant to book for us at pacific plaza
thn we went there to buy .
thn lter went urm.macs to eat.didnt really eat.
yuai bought meal.we bought drinks onli.
so kept eating yuai's fries.hahahas.sorri !
went fareast to buy clothes and other stuffs
didnot buy no money.but loo bought clothes.she and daph
also bought pencil case.thn lter went taka.shop and eat aliitle.
thn daph went home and thn i saw my uncleandaunt !
they were eating at one of the restaurants. rich !went to say hello
and byes2.lame.but so fun seeing them.oyah also saw jeanette aw.
-jingjing-holland.v she is darm pretty.yuai saw at first,thn
she turn her head arnd so i saw.but they didnt saw so we went chasing her?
hahas.lame but yarrss.but didnt get to see her and we were already at the
end so turn back.thn after daph went home.we went heeren.loo bought
wallet.wanted to buy the same model ?! quite cheap lorh.nice too.
thought for a long time but thn dunwant.
save to buy with audrey during june.thn lter a lady cornered us for wht horroscope thng ?only aim for loo.hahas.tok for a long time but thn lter rejected her.oh.we all bought audrey somethng also.happy anot ?
u get to knw on monday.
cant wait for monday ! all have same bag.and i think we are the onli first three to have this bag ?hahas.had a great time today.but thn thougt of wht i had been thinking.thn abit menmenbule.hiaya.forget about it larh.
oh-1 more thing .GD LUCK meixian and lorraine for tmr match !
we will always support you!
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blog quite long today.go adi larh.head want to pain adi.seeya on monday!

2004-04-27T16:51:00.000+08:00
just want you to knw who i am
if only fate allows ; but fate dont

Hehs ! Today was a really not bad day ?
did not run morining jog in the morning.
leg very pain.urghhs ! tmr got training ! ahhs.
thn during eng lessons today right
when ms zhuang said sumthng abt
" always look on the bright side of life "-advertsistment
yarrs.thn our whole class started singing the song softly
like so united ! for a moment i even 4got sumone i hate in there
its was lyk darm nice ! haha.e.lit was fun ?
went com.lab.but air-con not working.main com also got probs
so we go com on our ownfor epebbles do some stuff.
thn right of course we all went online.fun larh !
thts all i think ?! oyah. Daphne brought Brownies!!!
five ghosts,cai and loo were all eating during recess.
Yumm!!! so delicious lorh ! the choco tenderness melting in my mouth !
hahahas. Jealous ? ate during lessons also. So nice larh !
hope huiyu bring the chocos tmr.she never brng today.Boohs ! :(
but ate brownies today !
and on the way home.
i thought of wht present to give someone adi !
hope it touches her ! if someone give me tht
i will be so touch ! thought of tht for a long time
hope she appreciates !
end here adi.go do hmk !-not tht excited act.

2004-04-26T17:59:00.000+08:00
I give up trying ;
i tried so hard to find a chance to see you
I tried so hard to find a chance to talk to you
I tried so hard to have a date with you
I tried so hard to forget abt you
I tried so hard to get you out of my mind;

But in the end ;
all of these went down the drain.
the harder i tried to have a chance to see you
the harder i tried to have a chance to talk to you
the harder i tried to to have a chance to go out wif you
the harder i tried to forget abt you
the harder i tried to get you out of my mind

the more i thnk abt you
the more i want you to stay in my mind
the lesser chance i have to see you
the lesser chance i have to tok to you
the lesser chance i have to go out with you

so im leaving verything to god;
leaving verythng to fate;
leaving vrythng to life
as im sick of trying.

if fate allows ;
i will get to have a chance to those all those with you.
most importantly;
i have a chance to watch the stars with you.

but if fate allows
as when the more you expected it to happen the more it wun happened
but whn the more you unexpected it to happen,it will happens

2004-04-26T17:46:00.000+08:00
If fate allows,I wana watch the stars with you
Leaving everythg to fate ;
i knw no matter how hard i tried ;
and if god disagree, i dun have a try

Leaving verythng to fate now

Yum yum !!! muching in chocos now !
was thnking abt it all art lesson and till the end of the day
me and huiyu were toking abt wht chocos we lke.
and my saliva was nearly dripping larh.
i was lk-u knw i lke the royce chocos.So nice ! but vry ex ?!
thn she was lk huh ? ht royce.suntec got one.
thn she was OH! tht one.I have alot at hm but i dun really lk it .
i was so surprised larh.It was lk darn nice ? and ex ? she is such a rich kid.
dunnoe how to enjoy nice stuff . Sia. thn i asked her to brng tmr let me eat !
she agreed ! hahas. hope she brng .! lking forward to it !
Imagine the chocos melting in ur mouth.the tenderness !
slowly going through ur throat !- jus thnking make me so hungry !
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Today had 6 rnds napfa !
timing no gd larh compared to alot of ppl !
lk huiyu and winnie !- senior
hers is lk so fast 11 mins lk tht.mine ? Hiaz.
sprained my leg muscles aft tht ? cant work properly ?
now can adi larh.have headache also ? Sia. Dunnoe was it ystd queing up !
thn had maths.thn yarrs.normal stuff.!
thts all i thnk ! my chocos ! i hope huiyu rem to brng tmr !
I cant wait ! but still have loads of hmk to do !

2004-04-25T21:59:00.000+08:00
Love is kind ; somehow

im happy todays !!!
(: hahas.lalala.
recovered adi !

just want to say and how can i forget tht
i went out ystd and saw lots of thngs i wanted to buy !
shall save money for tht like lorraine koh.
or maybe i shld score well im my exams and ask my mama to buy for me ; lyk
lorraine koh !

I saw CynDi wang today !!!
wooke up at 9 today.
bathe and smelt fresh.
went amk macs to eat breakfst.
waited for ann-marie.
after she came, we took mrt to dobby ghaut.
But I saw 2 unexpected ppl today.
Firstly, i saw my cousin at dobby ghaut mrt.
she was so surprised to see me !
thn i saw ms lau in the car when on our way to amk mrt.
car plate : 8015
haha.purposely remember so can go and sabo her.
madness right.I dun care.
thn we went to plaza sing the front plaza to wait for cyndi.
alot of ppl were there adi ! We sat there from 1130 - 0315
So long lorh. We bought in total 3 large coke larh while waiting.
Ate potato chips.thn had a long talk wif ann-marie.
i just realised sumtink tht i thought it was true for so long
but turn out to be a total fake.
I realised alot after toking to her.
had a lot of meaning.start to accept fate.
thn cyndi came at 0315! supp to come at 0300
so da pai.late for 15mins
but its worth waiting to see her
thn vrybody started to squeeze infront.
pushing all over. me and ann-marie kept tip-toeing to see her.
cause loads of tall ppl were infront of us.and act those ppl who were at the back of us squeezed all the way to the front !?
idiot larh.so unfair.took nt clear pics of her.
thn whn those pl infront raise their posters.ppl at the back started to shout OOI ?! PUT DOWN LARH ! haha.so funny.thn we were lyk urmm.dots.
thn waited1 hour lyk tht to let her sign my disc.whn i saw her upclose she was so prettty ! and so polite summore !we act planned to say she very pretty to her just now but thn i got cold feet but ann-marie still say ! she was lyk
thnks alot-in chinese.thn smile so sweetly !Luvherlotslarh
father pick me up frm there afterwards to send me to church.
learnt alot frm church also! hahas. learn alot today.
went to the foodcourt below to eat.had porriage.no appetiate.
have 6 rnds tmr ! very scared leh.height and weight also.
and did i mention. we were under the sun so long till my skin is sun-burn and so redd !!!so hot also ! and my leg muscles hurt.how am i gonna run tmr ?
Sia.nvm.supp to have pos attitude frm now on.

Laura: I want to tok to you ! have alot to pour out to you .Can we tok sumday ?yarrs ?(: `hug you tight tight